I decided to track her down early this summer, I hadn't heard from her for so long that I was scared and wanted to see if she was alright. Nothing of her is left online. Facebook was gone. Her livejournal was dead so I sent her a simple email that just said "call me" and my phone number. She did. She sounded awful, as I said above. Her short term memory was apparently gone and she barely remembered events on AE when I mentioned them. She told me she wanted drugs, I forget why even though I know I asked her. It was an awkward and disturbing conversation filled with long awkward pauses and I regretted making it at the time. She might have even mentioned suicide. I don't remember. She just kept talking about wanting drugs. But she was happy to hear from me. Happy that someone form the old days wasn't mad at her. I insisted that everyone on AE missed her and she should come back. After we talked she even made a comment on my youtube page, but that was the last I heard from her.
The person I talked to that day wasn't the Amy I remembered. It is scary to think that someone can change that much in such a short amount of time, Jesus, that was only a month before she killed herself. Maybe I should have done more... I was just so disturbed by the way she acted. God damn it!