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It feels like I can never focus anymore on any of the things I once loved, or lose interest fairly quickly. - I know I want to regain the love for these things: such as video games, anime, movies, even certain music but I just feel un-interested in every activity pretty much.

I chose to wrestle for my HS out of interest for the sport, and that I'll finally be on a high-school team. Although, more than that I joined because I knew i'd have to goto practice for hours everyday and figured I'd be better off doing that then sitting home staring at my computer monitor bored. I don't even really talk on AIM anymore, while I used to be very internet social. I'll just either sleep, go lifting, or even shower to pass the time.

diet, excersize and how I look has affected me in a bad way I think, since I don't find the same simple enjoyments like back when I was care-free eating fast food, guzzling soda, playing counter-strike for 6 hours straight and just not caring how people perceived me and was in my own little world. Perhaps high-school slowly changed that for me, in some ways I look at it being for the better, but mentally I think it was for the worse.

I need a way to grip back onto the things I used to love and attempt to love now, but I just feel no interest into ANY daily activities. Possibly depression? stress? I have no idea, any ideas?

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to be honest, I think I have attention problems that are developing worse. This would make sense to why I cannot focus on anything anymore and has been increasing over the past 3 years or so. Yet when I talked to my mom about it LAST YEAR she sort of dismissed it by saying "Then you wouldnt be able to play video games for hours or play bass" and unfortuantly, now I can't really do either for hours.

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Sounds like you're ready to move on to other things. Seems like you've burned out on all the daily routines. Yup. It's time to start looking at cars, women, & drinking lots of beer! Yes. But yeah That's what it sounds like to me. You start changing a lot as you get older. Something that you will never like, all of a sudden becomes fascinating. Something that you used to like, all of a sudden becomes boring, almost like a chore to the point that you actually begin hating it. The things that you would always say that you would never lose interest in will slowly become things that you can't stand doing. Yes. Trust me. It happens to all of us. Some things will stay with you for the rest of your life, but we all need change & it sounds to me like you're ready for new things.

I personally enjoy motor sports very much. You can try autocrossing at your local SCCA event. You can also try drag racing at your local drag strip. I personally find straight lines boring, but a lot of people get a kick out of that. You can try road racing at your local race track. If you have some canyons or mountains nearby, you can try some canyon carving on those twisty roads. Just make sure that you take it easy & have your car set up properly. You can also try traveling. Take a road trip through United States. Maybe go to Canada & Mexico. Go out & start meeting new people. Get a new hobby. Yup. There are many thigns that you can do! ( ^o^) <3

So yeah! Don't worry about it. You'll get into something new & before you know it, I'll be seeing you in southern California driving a little 1995 Honda Civic Si EG hatch that's heavily braced & suspension modified & attacking the twisty canyon roads of GMR, Wilson, Angeles Crest, Fraizer Park, Kern River, Santa Monica Mountains, Palomar, Ortega, & even down south in Baja California! (^o^ ) <3

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also since you're a senior, this is an amazing time to start new things! If there's a part of America you're interested in, you could seriously just get a job/go to a state school there. i don't know if it would help your attention problems but at this point, it's possible to throw yourself into absolutely any kind of life with some determination which I know you have.

If you are on any kind of drugs (unless it's drugs for depression/add/whatever) i would go off them and start with a fresh healthy but unregulated diet

not that i know much about this. n_n gl wind!

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Yeah, it could be depression, or at least a type of depressive episode. Or you could just be "changing," maturing, etc. Maybe you are recognizing that you are changing, and this is what is upsetting you. You can't help if you lose interest in things that you used to enjoy, and maybe seeing yourself unable to do those things anymore, is what is depressing you. It is good that you are finding new things to participate in, though.

There is also that little condition called Seasonal Affective Disorder, and though you said that you have felt this happening gradually over the past few years, for right now, that could be a contributing factor.

I kind of am identifying with how you are feeling. I am unable to care about a lot of things that I used to enjoy, and it is so frustrating to not be able to find enjoyment in things that I could usually count on for that.

Maybe how you feel will pass, and maybe it will not, but at least you are able to recognize that there is something bothering you, because, as lame as it sounds, it really is the "first step."

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Well you know that I'm sort of going trough the same right now myself. I think the problem is the age you're at, it's full of emotion bullshit. It could be depression too, but if the new things you're doing depress you then go back to the old. Like be unhealthy and play games all day long, or try to. The problem with the age thing is that it usually goes away after you find an answer to a question you don't know, but sometimes you don't find the answer for whatever reason and years pile up and you're still out of it.

Either that or you smoked yourself dry.

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All I've got to say is that being healthy/fit and all is rad, but don't do it for other people... I dunno, that's my thoughts there.

I don't enjoy a lot of the things I did when I was a sophomore... I hardly ever touch my consoles anymore, and I haven't really had any interest in acquiring any new ones. I still play games on my computer a bit, but it's nothing like it was... I would get up at 5am so I could play games before school, and then stay up until 2am on school nights playing... And during the summer I slept with a controller in my hand. I don't really consider that time wasted, but if I did it again I certainly would.

Don't get depressed, but don't just sit around doing nothing, either. However, it sounds like you're doing something about that by joining the wrestling team. You could also try picking up another hobby, like Gee said, like reading or something.

Personally, I have to take breaks from things I like all the time. I don't do the "I'm always reading a book thing" because I'll read like three books at a time in a week and then not want to look at a book for two. If I've been playing my guitar a lot I'd rather sleep than practice, etc. You just have to figure out what works for you.

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I went though something similer my Junior year.

I think everyone goes though it, it's moving from a child into adulthood. You must make decisions, and those will shape your life from that point on.

Some people choose to do everything that is expected, some people choose to do anything they want. The former never end up happy, the latter end up in jail. But those who do what they have to in order to focus more on what they love to do... those are the ones who end up truly happy.

At least, that is what I believe.

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Burnout is inevitable in most things. I've almost totally burned out on video games (I played them obsessively for 10 years, it's not surprising) except for WoW, but recently I went back to some of the games I used to enjoy as a kid (N64 racing games, etc.) and found new joy in that.

Same thing with anime; I was on the brink of burning out with it but saw Bleach, kind of fell out of that and then went back to older series like Urusei Yatsura and Ranma 1/2.

Whatever got you into a hobby is probably some of the best stuff it has to offer, so I think you can find new joy in it by going back to what first got you interested. But if that doesn't work, why force yourself to like something?

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Just as an update.... about 3 months ago I tried Lexapro an anti depressant, I felt a little bit better but not too much.

As of 4 days ago I've been put on Adderall (Amphetamines) after being diagnosed with ADHD by the head of Yale Physchiatric hospital.

I've always wondered as I've had concentration and motivation difficulties since I was a young kid, and both docs said this was an obvious case that went ignored through my child-hood.

I feel like the old me again, excited about doing things, concentrated, enjoying all my video games way more, and I feel so locked in to them, like I played a 50 minute game of C&C3 and it seemed like 10-15 minutes, or when I played bass for 5 hours straight I didn't notice the time roll by.

Well, things are lookin' good.

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Just as an update.... about 3 months ago I tried Lexapro an anti depressant, I felt a little bit better but not too much.

As of 4 days ago I've been put on Adderall (Amphetamines) after being diagnosed with ADHD by the head of Yale Physchiatric hospital.

I've always wondered as I've had concentration and motivation difficulties since I was a young kid, and both docs said this was an obvious case that went ignored through my child-hood.

I feel like the old me again, excited about doing things, concentrated, enjoying all my video games way more, and I feel so locked in to them, like I played a 50 minute game of C&C3 and it seemed like 10-15 minutes, or when I played bass for 5 hours straight I didn't notice the time roll by.

Well, things are lookin' good.

thats awesome Dee glad things are goin good again

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